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Ginny

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I’ve been a cutter since I was 14, I am now 19 and have decided that I want to stop. I started cutting because my stepdad was abusive and my mom was never home. I used a safety pin one night to make scratches on my arms. I felt so much better and since then it’s gone from there.

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This is my story. I’m 19 years old now, and I’ve been a self injurer since I was 7. I know that’s hard to imagine, but even since I can remember I’ve been scratching at my skin and picking at any cuts and scabs I have. My parents didn’t know what to do, so they’d just tell me to stop. But I couldn’t, and I still can’t. The doctors when I was little called it a “nervous habit” and made it out to be nothing. Now my body is covered in scars since I’ve been scratching my arms, legs, back, anywhere and everywhere for 12 years now. I don’t even know what color my skin really is, the only clue I get is from my face which I’ve left alone. When I was 14 I started cutting myself with a safety pin and needles. Then when I was 15 I moved into knives and razor blades (which became my fav). I’ve tried to stop the severe cutting but even today I looked and I’ve scratched my skin so bad that there are round and oval cuts on my chest, back, bottom, legs, and arms. I mean I’m covered! And even though each day I promise myself I’ll let my skin clear so that I can wear a t-shirt of shorts, I just can’t stop. I don’t want to have these scars, there are far too many already. Too bad my scanner is broken, and it’s on my parents computer so I dare not use it. Otherwise you could see how extreme my scars and cuts are, it’s amazing. I do it to make myself feel better and I can’t stop, even the razor comes back to say hi to me every now and then. I have a feeling this will go on forever and I’ll never heal, and maybe that’s the truth.

P.S. I also have had anorexia and bulimia for a while, and in fact am going through a serious bout of it right now. Anyone who wants to talk can always email me.

 

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