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Kaylee

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Copyright, Kaylee

Well I’ve cut for about 2 or 3 years. And when I first started, it was just because I wanted attention. I felt like no one even knew I was here. And I got the attention I wanted. I got more than I expected. But then I started thinking about it. And I thought that if I sunk so low as to cut for attention then maybe I didn’t even deserve to be alive. I thought that I was just one of the worst people alive. So I kept cutting And I attempted to kill myself a bunch of times too. But it wasn’t for attention anymore. I didn’t tell anyone and for about 3 or 4 months I stopped cutting. But in the period of time that I stopped I tried killing myself 3 or 4 times. And I didn’t want to die. But I did want to be dead. No one understood it. So I started cutting again. It’s the only thing that keeps me alive. But if it helps me so much, why do people say it’s such a bad thing?

 

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