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Kerry

Personal Story

Copyright, Kerry

My name is, Kerry, I am a 17 year old female, attending high school. I started cutting about 2 years ago, at first I did it as kind of a release from stress, ya know just stuff a regular high schooler faces, but it didn’t stop there, soon, I was using anything and everything as an excuse to cut myself, and I was letting the cutting heal my problems, although they were still there. Soon enough the cutting just wasn’t enough, so I began taking Aspirin’s… 6-8 a day and sometimes when I really felt worthless, I’d take close to 15. The aspirine helped me numb all the pain, and make me unsure of what was going on around me, because of the high doseage that I was giving my body. For nearly one year I deprived myself of the truth, that I had a problem. It wasn’t until I was called to guidance one day in school for sleeping in class that I finally told someone about my cutting habbits. They of course called my parents in and sent me to be checked out, however my parents were in denial. Ya, every SI’s dream, huh? Wrong, it was horrible to have to hide the cuts everytime I did them, and for my parents not to be there for me when I needed them the most. I recently almost lost a friend because of my cutting, he is a close friend of mine and I feared losing him, so I have stopped. I wrote a letter to my mom, and left it where she could find it, and told her about my cutting. I learned life isn’t about living or dying, it’s about the friends that care for you in life that is important. To the most important people of my life, thanks so much, I love you guys, I wish not to be a role model to anyone, but I wish to be a learning experience that you can love life for different reasons, but you just have to find that reason. Thank you for taking your time to read my story, and I like to congratulate other former self inflictors on the hard work and determination that it takes to stop cutting…

 

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