BitterKitten

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What I Crave

i cut myself again
i hate the way this pain
is out of my hands;
the way it takes the reign
i can’t help but feel this way

i look down as i raise the blade
i see everything before me fade
i have to turn away
because the pain
of this mistake
is so intense

this need is burning up inside
this addiction that i cannot fight
it’s making me go insane
the way i want this pain

deep down inside
is this fear that
i cannot hide
deep down within
there’s a part of you
that just won’t leave

i can feel you all around
choking and pulling me down
i can see you every time
that i close my eyes

this craving eats at my conscience
i want it so much,
i can almost see it