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Gretchen

I Hate Myself Today

Copyright, Gretchen

Here’s a poem I wrote one time when I was depressed. I wanted to cut myself (I’m trying to quit); but instead I pulled out my notebook and wrote everything I felt; and wrote this poem:

I hate myself today
I hate the things I feel
I lock myself away
and take the razor to my skin
I feel the blood trickle down
Biting back the tears
more and more I cannot stop
bringing up this pain
then no longer can I hold it back
I let the tears pour out
staining on my soul
I drop the razor to the floor
I crawl into the shower
I turn the faucet on
let it drip onto my naked body
I cannot cry
I cannot breathe
I lie there motionless

 

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