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Jewel

Cuts

Copyright, Jewel

my cuts tell a story
a story of pain inside
i look at the scars
and i know there for life
just like the pain i hold within myself
it seems like it is never gonna go away
i cant seem to figure why i started in the frist place
then agian i do
i hated myself
and thought i should be punished
for what i do not know
the abuse i took at a young age could be why
i guess i just have to look deep inside
to find the answer
i dont know if thats possibly
cuz it might just do more harm

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Copyright, Jewel

I sit here wanting to die
But does anyone see that
No, they see me smiling
But im not happy
They see what they want to see
All this pain hidden beneath a mask
Covering up whats really inside
I’ve been to therapist to therapist
And nothing seems to help
Am i doomed to eternal pain
Or is it just temporary
I do not know, I have no answer
so for now I’ll cut and wait and see
What life has in store for me

Mom

Copyright, Jewel

you knew all along
the things i was doing to myself
but you choose not to tell
you know how that made me feel
like you did not care
you was my mother
your supposed to be there for me
instead you watched me go through all that pain
it was like you loved him more then you loved me
so i decided to do the same
i loved the blade more then i loved myself
i took all the hurt out on me
i was doing irt for years without you knowing
when you found out
you shut the door and went on with life
you didnt care
so why should i
now that im locked down
you wannna act
i can do that to
i’m probably better at it then you
i act like everythings alright
with a smile opn my face
i go on with life
just like the day you opened the door

The End

Copyright, Jewel

i sit here in my corner
not knowing what to say
screaming inside my head
‘i wish i was dead’
not knowing how to express myself
i cut and watch it bleed
noone seems to care
not even me
what are they to do with my poor helpless soul
they do not know
i’m moveing my lips
but no sound prerviels
my heart is decaying
as death comes near
i’m closng my eyes
they are watching me die

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Copyright, Jewel

bleeding,
hating,
dying,
living,
i want to die,
i want to cry,
i want to live,
cutting is the answer,
slash, bleed,
slash, bleed,
once again i am satisfyed,
well for the moment

 

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