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Laura

Copyright, Laura

Its hard to describe why i self harm. I have had a strange life. Bullying,depression,mental illness and losing some of the people i loved. I have episodes. The first one was when my aunty died, i felt so bad that i got a knife and slit my arms. Slashes after slashes after slashes. Blood pouring down my arm and then the relife. I finally had control of my life.

Recently i have been having my second episode. This time it is more servere. I want to stop, but i need help to do this. Last night it was 6 months since my boyfriend died. I got my lighter and held it to my wrists. This was the first time that i had burnt myself on purpose. It was a great feeling. I have never been to hospital, but have needed to. Im too scared to open up to people. Inside i hurt so much. So i compensate the emotional scars with physical ones.

Its a strong addiction and i want to stop.