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Anonymous
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I am 19 years old and I have had self injury for 6 years. I starting cutting because I got made fun of so much by other children in school. My mind couldn't handle all of the emotions that I was feeling. I was always too affraid to take up for myself. I knew that if I did that it would only make things worse. So I began to make little cutts on my arm with a pair of scissors. Latter on in life I started using a pocket knife. My cutts became much more violent. Instead of little cuts on my left arm I now had big long cutts. That were much worse. For a long time cutting really helped me. I thought that I would always be a cutter but, that changed for me about 3 weeks ago. Something had happened to me that made me really mad. I was really wanting to cut. So I got out my pocket knife and cut my left arm several times. I was in the dark when I cut so I really didn't notice at the time how bad it really was. So I got out my flash light and looked at my cutts. I had a few small cuts and a really big gash. The gash was really deep. Seeing how deep I cut myself made me realize that I had to stop being a cutter. If I didn't stop then next time the cut might be worse than that one. So I got rid of all of my weapons. I haven't cut in almost 3 weeks. It's hard because I still get that urge to cut myself. I just try to take it one day at a time. That's all anyone can do.