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feeling kinda weird......
Posted by Amanda on Sun Nov 11 14:20:34 2001 (#11778)

ok so no cuts for bout a month, so im really happy coz of that. but yesterday i was in town with all my mates, and like me they are gothic. wot i didnt know is that one of them is like me in another way. he cuts. i really want to be able to talk to him bout it but i dont know him that well. he was talking about it yesterday and i kept quiet. then a load of other ppl started saying they had done it. i dont know why but i felt really awful, part of me wanted to tell them all that i do and part of me wanted to tell them to shut up and stop "showing off" bout it. they werent showin off but part of me felt like they were. especially blondie(the first guy i mentioned) i just felt so odd. im so used to hiding my secret and not wanting to hear about it or anythin, and there i was surrounded by all these ppl who r comparing scars/cuts and i felt left out. it was so strange i should have felt like i fitted in as they all go through what i do. but i felt like the odd one out. when im with my mates who dont cut i feel accepted as they dont talk about it or say anything to me. and then i ended up yesterday with all these other friends who i thought didnt do it and they thought i didnt. but i found out they did and i felt so weird. oh my god i just didnt know what to do or say or anythin.

sorry guys i dont think that made any sense but thanks for readin it any ways.

Love Trust and Pixi Dust Amanda

Re: feeling kinda weird......
Posted by Mego on Mon Nov 12 04:12:15 2001 (#11784)

i totally feel ya man. i will be around friends who have cut themselves and they'll be talking about it with each other and it totally feels like they're showing off and i just want to tell them to shut up and to stop looking for attention, even though i know they are probably just tryin to get some of all that shit out. or something... i dont know. i'm confusing but i just wanted ya to know that i understand exactly how you felt. oh, and congradulations on not cutting yourself for a month, stay strong. lots of love, mego

blah blah a bunch of stuff bc i feel like sharing
Posted by *me* on Mon Nov 12 00:03:19 2001 (#11781)

I had a really bad day today. Has anyone ever been crying really really hard AND had a panic attack at the same time? Yeah, it gets really hard to breathe. I don't recommend it. I had a huuuuuge fight with my mother. Like, this was beyond any of our fights b4. Today sucked pretty bad. I scratched up my hip, and I even scratched over all these old scars. Now the scars are, like, really gross looking bc they're open sores. I'm going to cut later. I feel it coming. I'm so sick of living this way. I really think I need help. I want help so bad. I HATE BEING A FRIGGIN MINOR! Life sucks.

Re: blah blah a bunch of stuff bc i feel like shar
Posted by Mego on Mon Nov 12 04:16:26 2001 (#11785)

dude, i have had that panic attack/cryin thing before. yeah, it sucks. you sound like you and your mom are like me and my mom are, how old are you? everything sucks, i know. e-mail me at megox182x@aol.com if you need to talk cause i will always be there and it sounds like we go through a lot of the same shit. lots of love, mego

Re: blah blah a bunch of stuff bc i feel like shar
Posted by Tara's Mom on Mon Nov 12 20:20:38 2001 (#11792)

I'm sorry about your mom and you fighting. Is there anything I can do or say to your mom to help you out? I would if I could.If there isn't, how about emailing me and talking? I'll be back on the computer later on tonight and I'll answer you back. In the meantime, here's a (((((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))) )))))) just for you from me. Take care of yourself. Love, Rhonda