I remember the day like it was no other. I just got back from a friend’s house when I see these fire and police trucks all over my yard. I ran, not knowing what to expect. I didn’t care at that time. I was trying to get through and I got stopped and I said I lived here. “You must be mandy” said a Police officer. “Yes, what happened?”. The Officer then looked at my grandparents and I knew my mom had passed away. She was battling cancer for a while. After that whole roller coaster I had to move. I no longer have a mom and I hated myself so much. I wanted to die, I really did. I recall going to the bridge one night and throwing a can down there and see what happened to it. I started to cut myself because it felt so amazing. Having the blood just rush I found something I loved again. I had been cutting for about 3 years when my grandparents finally found out. They took me to the ER and I was locked away for 31 days. After I got out I just cried. I have been cut free for almost 2 years and I’m so happy to be here. I really expect life for what it is. Be positive!