Can’t be Perfect
No one understands me and the things I go through, I only wish that I could make you happy.
I can’t comtrol my life.
It becomes overwhelming.
The pain that dwells inside of me.
I can not control,
but the one pain i do control,
is the pain that I inflict upon myself.
For the first day in years,
the sun shines brightly on my
the sun so warm and comforting,
helps me to realize that I do want to live for one more day,
one step farther.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
I have almost every night,
wondering why i can’t stop crying,
thinking of what I have done to make you mad or make you sad,
wondering why I am still even here.
A shinny new blade,
the old familiar sting,
bright red streams of blood roll down my arm,
reminding me that i am alive.
No One Understands
No one understands the pain I have inside,
No one understands the cuts on my body,
My friends think I’m suicidal, but the pain inside I cannot bare,
The cuts are like an escape for me, when I cut I feel free and alive once again.
Hopeless romances, broken hearts, sleepless nights, and the fights. Bruises and scars. Cries and silent screams. No one can understand the pain that dwells inside my hopeless soul.