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Your Rose has Died

Copyright, Kyle

Again another night I’m left wondering
Thinking the unthinkable
More worried than worried
Wondering why, why?
Again left here alone I tear up
My head compressed with saddened thoughts
Not a bit of energy for self-destruction
It had already been done by you
I waited so happy but you didn’t show up
I knew it was just another lie
So I sat in my chair and stared and cried
Cried for you to just give me a chance
Cried for god to help you see
What stuff like this does to me
I screamed and begged
But nothing came
I don’t get it I’m again confused
Why are my feeling being abused?
I feel like I’m loosing you day by day
I can’t let go though
I won’t let go
I’m not suprised of this
Staring at the ceiling is no fun
Nor is laying on a pillow soaked with tears
Your red rose has turned black tonight
It does that alot
Thats why I’m scared
Friend, I think your rose has died

Ever So Dark

Copyright, Kyle

It’s raining but I can’t feel it
Because of the numbness that fills my heart eachday
I’d like to shove a knife right through your face
Thats how much I love you…
Ever so dark the sky is getting dark
It’s telling me to leave
But I think I’m going to stay
My shadow from the moon is bleeding
I starve my body pure of thought
I’ve spent too many hours picking up flowers
For a person thats special but makes me hurt
You should be me for a day and feel my pain
You should be me for a night and try to sleep
Its kind of like sleeping on nails
Impossible

Suicidal Love

Copyright, Kyle

I see the candlelight
And it sparks the night
Her bleeding starts and I’m torn apart
I have a tasteless mind
But the princess that cuts always seems to find
The right vein and blood red rain
Black and blue clouds
And it makes me proud
Chainsaw decapitation
Gross self-mutilation
Scars of total disgust
This time it’s a must
Someone shall ask me to say
Beyond the stars it’ll take a beast
To get me back behind these bars
Another monster born
It’s just another violent storm
With a fetus in her womb she spoke the sweetest words
Another wicked child-another violent re-birth
The sky darkened and winds swept the earth
The sun could not be found
The moon a part of ruin
She sat still as a plastic toy
With eyes like that she can destroy
My face drained of emotion
She let out a weep for help
The queen is sick and the king has died
A case of suicide?
Sharp broken glass brings her to rest
I have found the hidden treasures
There buried deep
So deep they can’t be reached
In the grave with possessed thinking wits
I found my shelters fine
I hold the key that proves you to blame
One quick slice and your thrown into flames
Tears run black down her blood-covered cheeks
I helped her down the stairs
She cries out in vein and the pain starts again
With one step left
I hold her cold moist hand
I mist from the sea fills my fantasy

Faith

Copyright, Kyle

Standing against heavens gate
Lies full-fill my mind of hate
Embrace the darkness of heavens lies
I am blind to your ways
Blind to the world
Pushing the bible down my throat
Pushing all that bullshit that Jesus wrote
My followers will follow
Leaders will lead
No God will confess
Their own abandonment of faith
I’ll never die for a God or deny my fate
But I’ll stand and fight speak my words with the purest hate
Believe the lies that the bible does hold
My faith is dying its getting cold
My faith is dead and I am stronger
No rules to follow religion no longer
Their fire burned on
Another church torn and burned
Another victim cried
Another Jesus died
The fire from hell didn’t burn
The light from heaven didn’t shine
Darkness on earth
Yet another day
And tomorrow will be the same
Another life, church, Jesus, put to shame
Another innocent person sent to pain
Today the fire burns higher
Not a thing you can do
Another war breaks loose
In the name of religion
What a lie
For your religion you’ll die?

Trapped in lies

Copyright, Kyle

Will they come to understand?
Beyond a biblical yawn
It’s a little bit different inside my paradise
I’ll slay away into the day
Erotic creatures filled with black
Screams of possession
Cut your throat
Front to back
You have to feed my desire
Have you found your destiny?
Can you, will you spend the rest with me?
I’m sick of this that’s what I’ll say
My dreams devoured
I’m you government in power
Your faith will not bend
Lies, we cannot ascend
No on can be scared
Every choice I make is a mistake
Every chance I see I take
Into your uncaring world
Discord
I am fucked into a world of forced feelings
Chaos
Suffering makes me angry

Black winter

Copyright, Kyle

Sometimes I can’t understand what you’re trying to say
It doesn’t really matter because deep down
I know all you want to do is pick up a gun
And blow your dreams away
I know it’s hard
Sometimes I feel like I can’t take another day
Don’t we all?
But I’m all tangled up inside and everything tries to go away
And don’t ask me what if…
Because you now half the shit I have to deal with
I drip from my eye when I’m not crying
Blood from my wrist when I’m not bleeding
I’m floating but not flying
Why?
A kiss from a ghost
A tear from a child
Laid cold in the snow
Without veins how can blood flow?
A black dark romance
With dark sheltered lords
I am free
Sliced skin
Your bodies getting cold
Bleed for me
The queen of sacrifice
Farther beyond
Dark hatred inside brings me to my feet
Just waiting for you to find

Betrayed by Christ

Copyright, Kyle

My face dwells in the shadow of heaven
Look at the blood I’ve bled
There’s something wrong-It’s not red
Sometimes evil gets its way
I strive to ignore it I close my eyes and turn away
Try-not to give in for once
I’ve made my choice
Is all God can do is betray?
Face the fact-What has he saved?
Don’t try to put your hand on my shoulder now
It’s to late to be my God
You were never there for me
Then I’m expected to accept you?
I will not no matter what you do
How does it feel to be betrayed?
I finally found myself
I know what I want
People pray to you with a noose around there neck
A gun down there throat
Answer and save
And stop living this lie.

Pure Disgust

Copyright, Kyle

Why did you come back?
Sorry but there’s no more room inside this room
It’s at all times been bazaar like this
Your space has been filled
You died again, this time
Why cant we just spin ourselves back around?
This have changed I’m seeing two of you
The two faced bastard I always knew
Backstabbing there’s going to be more happening
Oh no, my sight is lost again, come on
This shot from the darkness shall lay you to rest
You’re my third victim say your prayers and lets go
Church bells are ringing and I’m out for another killing
Now get ready because today is just another day
Another day where the sky goes gray
Choose to stay with the rest
And you can be along with the feast
There’s something out there killing beings
I am that beast
As I step out this door
Thoughts of nothing-Thoughts no more
I clutch my gun against my stomach
And think it’s all pretend
And I’m just a boy
I think of pretty things like flowers
And pretend my guns a toy
Wait, I think I’ll escape through the window
Where a spider gently hangs
With a web so thick
I’m the creature that makes humans sick
I cut your flesh and will not repent
Walking around like I’m insane
Walking around holding a jar with your brain
My back-pas is stuffed full of broken limbs
I get aroused as the chopping begins
It’s the kind of thing that most don’t like to watch
There is people chained against the wall
I pinned their eyelids opened…
Watching the horror the bones being broken
What will happen next?
You’ll have to use your imagination
But all you have now are thoughts of decapitation
You know what happens when victims try and get away?
I pull out the chainsaw and some I eat raw
There is no escape
I feel like you’re all the same
Taking this knife I peel back the membrane
I will not hide from authority
I’ll just plead insane
Oh no, another fatality!

Driven to Suicide

Copyright, Kyle

A little girl plays on the playground
She looks so happy to the world
She wants her mom to come home
She wished, she hoped
Waiting and waiting driven to insanity
She draws pictures on the chalkboard
Of her family being choked
Well look at that she went down the slide
Her mom thinks she’s fucked up and abandon’s her But really she tried
She’s only seven years old
And her mom just pushes her out in the cold
She plays by herself
All alone by herself
Nighttime arrives to me her eyes glow in the dark
She crawls inside and curls up in the corner to sleep
Tears are her pillow
Abandoned by her own family she hurts so bad inside
So young yet so many feelings already experienced
A little girl so corrupted by society
Have you even heard of a seven year old that’s like this?
This seven year old already knows what suicide is
Too little and young to raise a fist
So she sits back and cries
Sometimes she slits her wrist
Her mother is never home
Can she make it on her own?
She found a flower the other day and gave it to her mom
She shows her emotions but doesn’t know what to say
The next day she found it in the trash
Her mom threw it away just like she did to her
Lying dead and cold alone
Singing softly to your dark empire like throne
Give me the strength to carry on
You’re the one I can’t despise
It’s like burning… on ice
Cary me into your womb
Hide me from the outer world
I can’t seem to look you in the eyes
I try but daylight dies
Another day I’ve waited oh so long
I think I’m sick please don’t leave me here
It’s hard to breath with out my devil dear
It’s too cold my patience is running low
My thoughts sink but my should it glows
Time will pass and bells will ring
Ghostly voices yell and sing
Angels weep I hear their cries
I try to help them but daylight dies
This tears me down
I’ve sinned away
There won’t be any last hug good bye
Time to die, this is my day

Disgust and shooting stars

Copyright, Kyle

I can’t go far
Too many times have I wished upon a shooting star
Locked inside this cage of rage
No way out, no escape
Pale white faces
Her final words are said
Laid to rest
Witchcraft in her head
She wept in silence
Her darkened face shone
My thoughts were lucid
Thousands of mortals swept upon the torn earth
The smell of rotten flesh
Insuperable
Distasteful
Your face has haunted me for years
Your cuts have brought me to tears
We shall annihilate
You cannot ascend
Your soul has been violently sucked from your half eaten body
And torn into hell

Self-Mutilation

Copyright, Kyle

Deep within our skin we sin
Pieces of flesh cut so thin
Raped by a knife
Sliced with a razor
Everyone betrays her but it’s not the answer
Healed scars new beauty is found
I hold my head down
And in the blood from your cuts I drown
I wrap my hand around her wrist
Hold her tight cant let her be
Before you fall into a life of agony
Try to look back, look what you’ve got from me
In my head I hear you fly away
Look up at the stars
All I see are scars…
Scars that make me remember
What it’s like to live a lie
Look up at the moon
All I see is a world of doom
Where there is no room for feelings
Except the ones on your arm
Sp helplessly wounded
Please, put down the blade
Look at the floor; look at the mess you’ve made
So violent yet silent
Every slice had a meaning
Maybe its anger maybe you feel like nothing
But if it hurts somebody
You know your something…

The End

Copyright, Kyle

Tortured my heart
What have I done to you?
Taken over my mind
I cannot leave you
Nor your memories behind
Give me back what I’ve lost
Only time can set us free
Pray for the hurt to go away
I‘ve taken my last step
I think this is the end
I cannot go any further
This time no one can save
Why am I the one to be betrayed?
You have forever ruined my day
It lasted so long
So long…
Now it’s forever gone
I ask myself what I did wrong
So long…

Midnight-sky it’s time to die
Limbs broken torn off
Pilled up and pushed away in carts
I take them to the lab
To analyze the body parts
There’s something about this human being
There’s something about this chaotic girl
In a situation so distasteful
So sweet but so ungrateful
Golden eyes and mystic hands
A wistful soul…
Touch her body gently
Her skin makes me full
I found her in the cellar
Of a psychotic ones home
I brought her to the couch
Her face brightly shone
She wouldn’t talk or open her eyes
She didn’t breath nor make one sound
I looked her in the eyes
I couldn’t believe the magic I’ve found
When time was here I picked her up
Took her to my bed
She just laid there
I laid her down and cuddled up next
I felt a sense of comfort with in
Her body laid rotting
In my own little bed
But it wasn’t until the next morning
I realized she was dead

I am dead

Copyright, Kyle

I day with wind and rain
Day is declining
The night sky is blinding
I lay myself down
In this black cradle so dear
Nothing looks happy everything is dark
Everything is wet
Kind of like a black sunset
Choked in the glow of the moon
The grim sky darkens
Life won’t be ok
I’m drifting away
Everything is forgotten
Silence yourself
Another day full of tears
Another day wasted away
Mindless you think
Pains in my arms
My stomach
I don’t take pleasure in what I do
But I do admire self-destruction
Now I’ll never sleep
Fuck you

I shouldn’t bother

Copyright, Kyle

Pushing another day away
Please don’t pull me closer
If you intend to push me away
Why do I love you?
I hate you
Each day taken your problems away
Why are you taken?
It rips me apart now each time I’m with you
Oh god what should I do?
I don’t turn to you
I don’t turn to anyone
I turn to drugs
I turn to razors
Why do you hate me?
Someday well come out, be free
I’ll always be here but
Ill never be what’s not with in me
Another night — I think hard
Another night — I cut for you
There’s got to be more to life than this
Tell me I’m wrong?
I’m not scared to be honest
Wish I could have that love inside you
But instead I waste my time
So long — so wasted
I try to make the best of each day
But I’m fed up with you
All I see are lies
Why should I even bother?
I just waste my time

Drugs

Copyright, Kyle

Please stop talking to me
I’m confused
I don’t know what I’m doing
I carve lines in my arms
Pure slicing flesh
Falls to the ground
What are these visions I see?
Hey — save me…
Stop reaching through me
It tickles
Can you be like me?
Try like me?
Die like me
Sitting on my bed slicing my skin
Why don’t you come here
And feel my pain?
Then take it with you
I have no hope
For anything
I want to curl up
And die…

Trapped in the Past

Copyright, Kyle

So tired and sick
I’m wasting away
Take things off my mind
Help me get out of here
So tired tapping my nails on the table
Things seem endless
The clock ticks on where are you at?
I should of known
Things happened as expected
I know it happened
By why do the memories have to be reflected?
I give up on trying
I give up on you
You’ve got to know there’s only so much I can do
I never thought I’d say this
But I think I hate you
I can’t live this way
No I can’t not one more day
With nothing left
I’ll sit alone
I’ll walk the road ahead
Who knows when I’ll be home
Who cares
My problems are endless

I am your problem

Copyright, Kyle

Waiting and waiting I’m so sick of waiting
These thoughs I have
You say things but you must be mistaking
Mistaking me for who I am
Well I’m just in a daze
I’m just a problem a fucking mistake
I don’t know how much more I can take
I unwrap a present thats just for me
Yeah thats right just for me
A shock of joy runs down my spine
I wonder whats inside
Oh look its lonelyness
I think I got that last year too
I want to be through
I have too many problems what should I do?
I want to try for the world
I want to be happy for a second
The things that make me smile
Are lost forever
But I will never stop searching

Dreamtime

Copyright, Kyle

Here I am again I tried
I tried but yet I hurt so bad inside
Again I had to fuck things up
My world has gone so corrupt
I want to run away
But I can’t escape the pain
It’s with me where ever I go
Kind of like you
I could cut it out
But I won’t do that again
So I say but there is a doubt
I tried so hard to work this out
I feel sick of you
Sick of everything
I hate myself and everyone
I wish I could turn this around for you
I lay here bleeding in my bed
Laying — bleeding on my bed
I can’t do anything right
I wish I could fall asleep and dream forever
Because when i dream I’m happy
The sweet girl you used to be
And you still are…
When I dream
These colers surrounding me
I listen to you talk
Your words are drowning me
So much lost in so little time
I cry, my world has really died
Try again please try again
I don’t mean to beg
But theres nothing else left for me to do
I’m sick of trying
Abandon by you today
Nothing left for me today
I sit here wondering today
What am I doing wrong today?
I’d give it all for you
This puzzle has been broken
Abandon by you today
Nothing left for me today
what am I doing wrong today?
I hate myself so deeply
I’m scared of myself
Bleed untill I’m dead because
I can’t forgive you
The puzzle has been broken
I wish I was special to you
So I tried but to you I fucked up
Theres nothing left for me to do
Please don’t fade away
Someday I hope my dream comes true
I site here all day
I sit here all ngiht
Most nights I can hardley sleep
Just give me one ngiht
where everythings the same
I lay here and stare at the blue
You just fade away

I’m Dying Here

Copyright, Kyle

You’ll never know what we had coming
Now you’ll never see the fucking light of day
You ripped my heart out
You tore me apart
Does it ever occur to you?
Well hey I’m sure I’ll do fine on my own
I hope I make it on my own
I’m ripped between two worlds
everyday it hurts so bad
It feels like somethings missing
Something is missing
I’m screaming inside
I’m not ok
Take a seat right next to me
Another friend lost and you’ll never know
We’ll never see the light of day
Feeling worthless
Always so quiet
I want to be happy
I just want to be fucking happy
This is the saddest day of my life
By the way I hate my fucking life
I’m not fine on my own
I hate to be torturing you
But look what your doing to me
All these letters of what I meant to you
If what you meant to me
You won’t let me be happy
Without begging you
Will this road ever end?
I’m drowning in your photographs
I go to sleep because I’m scared of myself
And what I might do
This razor is putting me to sleep
I hope your doing well in life
Because I am fucking not I never sleep
Constant worries
I want to be anywhere but here
I need to be with someone that cares
Hearts are fragile relationships tear
Look at me I’m dying here
Because you never said good bye
Help me find my way back
Come on lets go home
Let me take you home
Again I go home alone
I wasn’t expecting any long term good byes
Breathe I need to breathe
Continuing to beg you
No phone calls anymore
This distance is terrible
So this isn’t getting any better and I’m scared
I’m always ready for the worst
But not inside
I’m killing myself by tring so hard
This day is fading
I’m just here taking up useless space
There is nothing worse then waiting
Reading your letters again and again
I’m missing those letters
I bet your having the time of your life I’m not alright
Do you even care?
Looking at your photographs
I pretend it’s really you
Sleeping in my bed
I pretend I’m next to you.

My Friend Frosty

Copyright, Kyle

Washing away like Christmas joy
Walking around with my broken toy
The candy canes white and red
But the sound of Christmas songs is now dead
I went out side to play in the snow
To play with my friend snowman
I named him Frosty
Days past and Frosty melted
I sat in my room with not one friend
My only friend was gone now
Oh god I asked him how
How could this be?
How could you take him away from me?
The snow covered with blood and guts
> From my friend Frosty who melted away
His innards splattered on the cold winter snow
No more decorations not even a Christmas bell
My mom told me I will be ok
Don’t worry with all them guts I’m sure the grass will grow well
Geeee thanks I’m so proud of myself now
So proud I drew a picture on next years snowman
With a razor

Saddness and Changing Seasons

Copyright, Kyle

This is now a game of hate
I loved you for the attention you gave me
Can’t you see what your doing to me?
My heart has been used
I am cold and numb
And you made me that way
I try and try everyday
And I remember
And I remember…
Seasons have changed so have we
I just wish you could be me
This is how the story goes
I’m not where I wished to be
My hollow heart
Well heres the saddest part
I know everything is going to be lost
Tears come down alot
Like raindrops on a stormy night
memories always have to ruin my day
My mind is engulfed in misery
Same old song in my head
Same broken heart
Same lost memories to dwell on
Where have I lost my way?
Where have I gone wrong?
This candle is slowely burning out
My trying is a failiure

 

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