Copyright, Erik

August 11th. The worst day of my life along with the next 7 months to follow being the hardest (trust me, I’ll explain). Anyways on that day I lost my girlfriend, and was kicked out of the second best (hardest) school in the Navy. So I went to the store and got 150 pills (3 bottles) of Tylenol PM. Came back to my barracks, went into the bathroom, and downed them really quick. I went into my room and that really nasty buzz hit me and I was actually happy that I was gonna die. I was actually at peace with it. I went unconscious at about 12:00 p.m. My roommates didn’t get back until about 11:45 p.m. They found me facedown in black-blood vomit.

I was rushed to the Naval Hospital and then flown to Loyola University Medical Hospital. I was diagnosed with liver failure, kidney failure, septic shock, and MRSA pneumonia and was put into and induced coma. About a week later I developed aspiration pneumonia and A.R.D.S. (lung failure). I wasn’t supposed to make it through the weekend. The doctors weren’t sure about the odds of me making it but, just having A.R.D.S. alone I only had a 40% chance of living and I still had everything else on top of that.

Eventually, out of nowhere my kidneys and liver got better and the doctors couldn’t explain that. The A.R.D.S. went away along with everything else with the pneumonia going last. But on or around August 26th (I was still in the coma and no one at the hospital can give an exact date) I developed a left brachial plexopathy. I couldn’t believe it. My left arm was going to be paralyzed for god knows how long. And let me tell you, after 1 month in ICU and 6 months in physical therapy and losing 40 lbs and almost my liver and kidneys. Suicide is not worth the effort. Just gut it out and deal with it. Because if I had done that I would still be in the Navy and would still have 100% use of my arm. Right now I don’t have either and probably never will.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. Remember: It gets worse before it gets better. If you have any questions my e-mail should be displayed with this and also my ICQ number is 77471493. Thanks again.


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