It was only recently that I understood that I was engaging in self-harm. I have read about the subject before, but since I don’t cut or burn myself the thought never even occurred to me to apply what I read to myself. I have just read many of the stories and articles on the site and last week read a very informative book. What I do is gouge huge holes in my scalp and don’t let them heal as I repeatedly gouge the same areas every day. Every few months I let the mess that develops heal, but shortly thereafter begin all over again. I’m sure that sometimes it must be noticable, but I’ve never talked to anyone about it before. So much of what the people said in their personal stories rang all kinds of bells for me. I’m sure that I will process this information gradually, but for now it only serves to make me more afraid and confused about myself. Thanks for your site.