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Greenstar

Don’t Run Away from Me

Copyright, Greenstar

Me used and wasted
Me abused and tasted
Me frail and vile
Me pale and crying
crying tears of blood
not tears of salt
i know i cant stop
but its still all my fault
always hearing i love you
never feeling that its true
can’t it once just go right?
why cant i feel good?
why do i have to fight?
Me full of rage
Me spitting out venom
Me not acting, being real
Me not acting, this is always how i feel
i can pretend to be fine
I can pretend to not live a lie
i can pretend to smile and be vain
but in my soul there is stabbing pain
in my skin there i stab, no shame
holding a blade i slice my skin
but why do i do this?
why can’t i stop, just for him?
Me loving, or at least hoping i do
Him i’m shoving, but trying not to
Me crying, fragile in his arms
trying not to scare him away.

 

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