The Pain Killers

Copyright, Jemima

How many pills do I have to take before all this pain goes away? How many? Two? Three? Twenty? It can’t stop the hurting, the cutting, the yelling, the screaming, the shouting. It can’t stop how I feel about myself, how I feel about life, and about others around me. Why won’t it work? What am I doing wrong? Stupid pills, I hate you! Do I need to take the whole bottle, do I need to kill myself? Will that stop the pain? I need to know, I need to know now; so I can get away from this mess, be free, be my true self. I want to get away from myself. If only the pill would work.


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