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Nina

Her Life Ends

Copyright, Nina

her eyes are filled with hate
her life hasn’t been that great
she wants a second chance
at her wrists she won’t glance
she wishes she didn’t own this mind
her parents were so blind
she doesn’t kno what to do
no one’s giving her a clue
her wrists are bleeding in her dreams
mabie cuz she slit her wrists with a lazor beam
she gave up on everything she had
everything went from ok to really bad
she’d do anything to feel the pain
she’d even do damage to her brain
she’d even cut herself with glass
whenever she got offered weed… she wouldn’t pass
she sometimes thinks life isn’t fair
to kill someone else is her big dare
she would kill anyone though
she would too kill herself really slow
sometimes her thoughts are sick
she wouldn’t yell at a man… she’d stab him with a stick
her whole life has been filled with pain
no one knows she only cries in the rain
her tears blend with each rain drop
people are always telling her to stop
everyone just thinks that this is one of her trends
but they’ll know it’s not… tonight when her life ends

Before, After and Before

Copyright, Nina

she cries bloody tears
not even death makes her fear
she rapidly cuts her skin
she cuts herself with safty pins
her brain thinks it was a dream
she awakes in a panic and screams
she thinks there was a flood
til she realizes her bed is drenched in blood
but it wasn’t a dream
she really did scream
but now it’s all real
this girl sends her a good feel
she then invites her in
then thier lovin begins
she notices her scars
as they continue, she counts how many there are
after they are done,she asks why
she told her she wanted to die
she then became angry and ran away
she cuts more now because of that day
some of her friends told her to stop
but she’s on the roof and she’s gonna drop
this girl she loved broke her heart
she will now jump to restart

Fade Away

Copyright, Nina

You locked away your secrets,
And you, threw away the key.
It’s all hidden there in your history,
For you to look up every now and again.
You won’t share with the world,
Or anyone who cares.

You know it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
You know it hurts to cry,
But it hurts to laugh.
You’re dying on the inside,
You can’t let it out.
Yeah it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.

Times not on your side,
And you, feel let down.
You run away and cry,
Don’t wanna be found.
Ashamed and scared of what you’ve become.
Don’t understand what’s going on in your head.

You know it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
You know it hurts to cry,
But it hurts to laugh.
You’re dying on the inside,
You can’t let it out.
Yeah it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
Yeah it hurts to smile.

You’re dying on the inside,
It’s eating you away.
Nobody can save you now,
It’s time to fade away.
Fade away.
Fade away.

You know it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
You know it hurts to cry,
But it hurts to laugh.
You’re dying on the inside,
You can’t let it out.
Yeah it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
You know it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
You know it hurts to cry,
But it hurts to laugh.
You’re dying on the inside,
You can’t let it out.
Yeah it hurts to smile,
So you hurt yourself.
Yeah it hurts to smile.

You’re dying on the inside,
It’s eating you away.
Nobody can save you now,
It’s time to fade away.
Fade away.

Dear Daddy

Copyright, Nina

Dear Daddy,
Once long ago I loved you,
Now I hate you.
Play with me,
Take me for a walk,
Leave me behind,
Lie your way out.
You weren’t my daddy,
I wasn’t your little girl.
You were crule.
I was small.

Dear Daddy,
So many questions,
Did you care?
Did you love?
Why did you cheat?
You weren’t my daddy,
I wasn’t your little girl.
You were crule.
I was small.

Dear Daddy,
Are you dead?
I am!

Nothing But Blood

Copyright, Nina

each and every day,
i sit alone and cry.
i wonder why you left me,
if you wanted me to die.
i was just a little child,
needing to be loved.
but you lied and left me,
now i show nothing,
but blood.

did you ever stop to wonder,
what you might have done.
i was your little girl,
but all you did was run.
now i don’t know how to love,
or let me be loved back.
i don’t show who i really am,
just hide away and cut.

beacuse of what you did back then,
i don’t know who i am.
and so all i show is nothing,
but blood.

 

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